It’s happening. Today. In 28 minutes.
I had horrible dreams all night last night. I kept waking up, figuring out that it was still night, that it was only a dream, and then going back to sleep and falling into an even worse one. Argh.
I feel sick to my stomach. Nervous. Anxious. Like I want to throw-up.
I would sweat, but it feels like my whole body has gone into shut-down mode and is constricting itself into the smallest possible space.
I’ve gone over my notes.
I had a mini-preview of a conversation with Person #2 last week, so that’s something. But who knows how Person #1 will be today?
I have my principles and my beliefs, but I just don’t know how or if they will be invited to the conversation at all. If they will be heard. I don’t know that I am going to feel welcome at all… I hope so, but I don’t know.
Day 274, eep….