Dear Day 3-ers.
Listening to The Bubble Hour today on my looooooooong ride home through Midwest, USA, I heard a little gem. First, the episode I was listening to was: ‘Straight Talk About Alcoholism Signs & Symptoms,’ and I found it so realistic regarding the various stages of alcoholism. The women hosting the episode were incredibly frank about the stages they identified themselves in, as well as the symptoms they were feeling, just as they were on the verge of seeking help for their addiction, or requiring help.
As it relates to my blog post, I had a ding! moment because for whatever reason, I’ve found that several of my friends here have written that they are finding themselves having to repeat their early days over and over again. Well, in the episode, a great fact was shared that withdrawal symptoms are usually at their worst 48-72 hours into sobriety! My Dear Day 3-ers, This. Means. You!!! Isn’t that great news? You’re not crazy. You’re not alone. And yes! That Day 3 is a mother fucker! (Is it weird that I’m smiling while typing all this? It doesn’t seem like a typical thing to be happy about, but I think it is just awesome!) That Day 3 that keeps holding you back, or giving you the what-for…. It’s chemistry and biology all mixed together. It’s not you. You are not weak. You are not worthless. And you are not a jerk for not making it through that day. It’s a hurdle. A really big, sky-scraping hurdle, covered in barbs, with alligators waiting at the bottom in a murky, slimy pit, and vultures circling above you as you climb naked, but in heels (men, too) all the way to the top and over that jerky-of-the-jerkiest-Day-3s.
…. Doesn’t that give you Hope?
And a little relief? I had to share it with all of you right away. I know some of you are back in early days, and I hear your frustrations and sadness. I thought maybe hearing a bit of the physical components to the disease might make it more possible for you to get to that Days 4 and 5… And onward!
Day 66, Love from the Monster.*