1 bottle of vino = approx. 650 calories
1 food binge while drinking said vino = approx. 1000 calories
23 days sober = 23(650) + 23(1000)
Total Calories Not Consumed in 23 Days Sober = 37, 950
Holy. Fucking. Shit. That’s a shit-tonne of calories that have not gone into my body. Wow. I’m kind of floored. And kind of super-fucking proud that I cut back on my calories so significantly, even though I didn’t really do anything except stop drinking the booze, which would then, stop giving me the cravings to eat yummy, fatty foods while I was drinking the booze. I’m also kind of surprised I maintained that intake for almost the past 3 or 4 years straight. No wonder I had some self-confidence issues. No wonder I was missing my svelte self. Jesus Christ.
# of days I had no idea what an idiot I was = All of them.
# of days I was actually an idiot = ALL of them.
I will admit to continuing to be an idiot. I tried putting on a smaller sized pair of jeans yesterday, thinking the pounds had already all melted off because I feel mostly good in my body, but? Nope. Not yet. Yes, of course, to losing some of the bloating, etc., but all those years of ingesting … everything I wanted … has really added up (math)… literally. The non-idiot part of me knows it’s going to take a bit longer than 3 weeks to shed these lovely alcoholic curves, but I have hope. More than I did than when I was imbibing, as I found myself day after day stuck at the same weight, with the same puffy shape. … And now I know why. … Idiot. … Again.
Day 23, I understand if you roll your eyes at me. I would.