Heya, Monster.

A SoberBlog by a TallWoman.


Sitting in the middle of a little chaos after a morning of rehearsal (another show overlapping with my opening tonight). Came home and the kids are basket cases because they didn’t go to bed until 11:15 last night. The hubs is using his sharp voice because the kids are asking for me over him (frustrates and breaks his heart). I am in the middle of some of the worst PMS in a long while (sorry, men), and I think it’s complicated because of the PAWS. I’m irritated and cranky and quick to react and have been for 36 hours. I was an asshole to my kids yesterday, and dress rehearsal was good but the day and the hours leading up to it were so stressful. I feel like I need to shed my skin right now. Gah. Fuck. Grr. and Blow it out your ass, world. And PAWS. And womanhood/hormones. Fuck all y’all.


Oh, and the cast went out for beers last night while I wrestled my kids to bed. Jealous and frustrated about that, too.

Feeling like a monster the size of the Chrysler Building.

Day 19. A dark cave, a pillow, and a movie (Notting Hill?) would be nice right about now.


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13 thoughts on “PAWS & PMS?!

  1. Yup. Sounds like a sucky fucky day 😦 Tomorrow, I hope, will be a whole lot better for you. X

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  2. Compassion for all.
    Learning to not take the kids actions personally has been a big step for me and my husband. They don’t mean to hurt people’s feelings.


  3. Hmmmmm, sending you a hugs and…. congratulations on your day 19. I am happy for you. 🙂

    xx, Feeling

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  4. Egad! PAWS and PMS? To bed with you, before you kill someone!

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  5. We all Just survived! *smile*

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  6. Thank you! I am sitting here to tell you I survived. Phew!

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  7. That’s a great way to put it. Thank you, a.*


  8. You’re awesome. Thank you, Bea! *smile* Tomorrow has begun, so that is a very good thing.


  9. You are doing well. 🙂 I had my own adventure with some dark passenges these days, trying to work it out now.
    Btw: what’s the thought behind your name? Is Heya a greeting? (English is not my mother tongue but I guess you figured that out ;-))


  10. Thank you.* It’s nice and comforting to know that people have traversed these steps in some way, shape, or form before. Today feels much better than yesterday, and I’ve only been up for 20 minutes. *smile*

    As for the name, yes. ‘Heya’ is a bit of a slang version of an already slang greeting: ‘Hey, Feeling.’ The ‘Hey, Monster’ tag was already taken for a gmail account, so I added the ‘a’… It’s more me anyway. And ‘Monster’ because… I have quite an imagination and tend to see things in metaphor versions in my head. And I like that monsters morph and change… Which seems like what alcoholism and bipolar do in my world. Thank you for asking.*

    p.s. What is your native language? Where are you from now/originally? (I haven’t gathered that English is your second language from your blog yet.)

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  11. Monsters morph and change… we are on the same page today. 🙂 / 😦 I said goodbye to the store man after a way too intense experience again. Now trying to work it out but it actually calls out all my monsters. Which is good, all good. But difficult, and expensive on the chocolate. 🙂
    I’m Dutch and live in the Netherlands. On everage I believe we speak 3,5 languages here, just because nobody outside our 16.000.000 people country likes to speak ours. 🙂


  12. Oh, I’m sorry to hear your trouble with the store man. It sounds like you’re setting boundaries and figuring things out how you need them to be. That is a good (albeit difficult) step. … And chocolate is good. *smile* I was eating a ton myself yesterday. Hee.

    I am going to sound so American for a moment, but I Wish we were encouraged to speak and to use multiple languages here. Many must take a second language for about 2 years for schooling requirements, but apart from that, I believe there is a cultural perspective that looks down on anything non-English as ‘unintelligent’ or ‘unAmerican’. Our solitude and ‘independence’ as a nation within a Diverse and Historied world drives me crazy. (p.s. I must confess I love Obama and wish he could serve at least 2 more terms, or for life, if it was allowed.)

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  13. Yeah, the USA has this greatness syndrome, it is unbelievable. Compare the world to a class of todlers and the USA would be the rich, emotionally deprived bully. 😦
    Still trying to figure out the store man stuff thing here. Theoratically I am very much against the sugar solution of things but sometimes…
    I’m not sure about Obama, while everbody was drawing rainbows and Hillary Monsanto has got me in the pocket Clinton was bringing the country to tears with her gay marriage vid the TTP got fast tracked. 😦 Bad, bad news.


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